Lovers

We Don't Have To Love. I wish we had lovers we didn't have to love. Love is...so......presumptous. Agh. I wish i didn't have to love. I love too much. Here's my love. Now go light it on fire and stomp on it.

note to self

ridicule, embarrassment, harassment...it's of the norm. but are we all of the norm? i don't feel this things quite often as i should. where are my thoughts headed to next....i'm not ashamed of my wily thoughts. i would put them out there. but i can't, really. or else i would be ridiculed, embarrassed, harassed. i don't feel those emotions. i feel emotions that i shouldn't feel. i think thoughts i shouldn't think. how do you escape that?

tiki

you are SUCH a good friend.

I feel

i'm at a constant war with myself. i'm sure there's no drama going on in my world. but inside my brain there's a whole mess of nonsense that i wish i could clear up. no one knows about it, but i'm just making it worse every time i think about it. i wish there was someway to clear your thoughts & restart them. i'm getting annoyed with people, & they don't know it. which means i'm getting annoyed with myself for not telling them. since i speak my thoughts, this makes no sense. i'm making no sense. but logically i should tell them, since that would be my first instinct. however, no one can judge my thoughts. but myself. & i'm the worst judge...